A bit of a ramble and a rant about the sides of life that are not so pleasant. I am still looking for the new job or jobs. I don't mind interviewing per se...I don't get nervous or anxious but....after a few months and 25 or so resumes sent and a dozen or so interviews etc. I am getting tired ...I don't want to settle for just any job so I am trying to hang in there....dentists come in every shape, size, and flavor.....and I'm tasting another one later this morning....I have had many of these develope into offers that I have turned down for various reasons....so .....I am working for a temp agency so I am still paying those bills....
now the coffee shop....well there is the real drama and discomfort...My sister had originally started the shop with the help of a gentleman (Randy) who I have posted about before...he is a very talented artist and he has so much potential ...they had an agreement that she would put the money into the developement and he would put his time and talent and earn shares after the business paid off the start up costs...well as these things often go the relationship deteriorated and as the doors opened after 2 years of planning they were not getting along well at all...my sister had begun to see another gentleman and that (I think) really sent things into the last spiral of destruction.....Randy began to act in very strange ways talking to the employees about closing the store and "reoganizing" on his own ...I think he has subtance abuse issues that cloud his ability to see the world clearly ...anyway my sister was forced to ask him to leave...which he has but now from the sidelines is creating such problems....almost scary in the rambling disjointed and threatening pronouncements ...in the stuff he writes and says he is sounding not all there ....and I understand that he feels as if he has lost his whole world and I am so sad that this has happened to both of them....there is really nothing I can do except listen....My sister is working so hard...she is there at the shop from 6 in the morning till late at night some nights not coming home till 11 pm and she has her paying job at a hospital as well 3 days a week...I am not sure how she is holding up ... the shop is struggling and she had counted on having a partner to help her run the day to day ....I am not at all sure what will solve this ...she was and has given him a lot of money to live on this last year because his income wasn't enough to support himself...he put time and creative ideas into the inception of the shop ...why can't people get along!!!!
OK I am glad to have written down and "offered up" the problems ...I am glad to have my own place to fuss and know that there are some listening ears...funny how much better it feels...I need to go shower and buy some pants cause I didn't bring my "interview outfit" what a dork wouldn't you know the week I don't throw that in the car......then I am going home to wallow in some art making.....here is praying for PEACE IN THE WORLD and I mean that for the personal and the world problems....
actually my body is better looking covered up...and today the body hurt!!! Headache and cramps...I think I will go to bed early...but I am trying to be a better blogger so I am posting 2 days in a row (martyr?) I am going to be in Silverton tomorrow which is such a pretty little city so I hope my head allows enjoyment....of the eyes...while I clean teeth!!! good illustration of the text HUH??? 
the answer is ALL OVER THE WILLAMETTE VALLEY....I have been working for a temp service since last december and they have had me running to and fro these last couple of weeks...I just barely make it home and then I'm off again...it is really a blessing I don't have those family obligations cause I'd be toast!!! I made it to church today and was inspired...which is what is supposed to happen.....I have been creating some good stuff I think ...just need to settle down and get some photos for you all...I took this photo through my car window on the way to work on Friday morning..I'm going to try and keep the camera with me as the days are getting long enough that there is enough light before and after work to see the beautiful sights we have here....if I'm going to drive all over kingdom come I better record the beauty of said kingdom!! 
